prompts
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i. Yunho is a snake. Figuratively of course. And literally too.

 

ii. Jaejoong wants. Yunho forgets.

 

iii. What hurts the most.

 

iv. Wherever you go, I'll go too cause I'll only be where there's you

 

v. Yunho is doing aerobics... Self-choreographed. Everyone is amused. Jaejoong is aroused and worried.

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plotting bunnies again
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A. Jaejoong is a kind, smart, witty teenager. However he's also fat and gay which resulted in him being an outcast but he's extremely close to the very few he have as friends (HoSuYooMin). Yunho is Yoochun's younger brother & the maknae of the group. Yup, even Changmin is older here. LOL. Anyway, he had had a crush on Jaejoong for a while, falling in love with Jaejoong's care & personality but nobody knew because he managed to conceal his feelings due to his quiet nature & deep personality. He does at times act childish but otherwise responsible and dependable.
Anyway one day he came across a depressed Jaejoong eating tons of ice-cream or chocolate whatever brooding about getting rejected again. Apparently Jaejoong really really likes the senior this time so he ended crying when Yunho comforted him then he says nobody ever want a fat guy like him. To placate him, Yunho teasingly offered to be his boyfriend until Jaejoong meet someone who know the real value of Jaejoong & be his real boyfriend. Yunho didn't confess because 1, everyone knew Jaejoong dislikes younger man and 2, Jaejoong always see him as a dongsaeng & would not take him serious at all then things would be awkward & painful for Yunho. So Jaejoong, desperate to at least be in a relationship once before graduating & in order to not feel so pathetic about himself accepted the offer but made Yunho promised not to tell anyone even the YooSuMin the truth as in let everyone think they are a real couple & to break up at the end of the year when Jaejoong's going away for college.
So a series of events then happened, all involving Jaejoong being fat & Yunho not caring about it. Whatever events are plausible. Events at school & outside when they go out/date. For example like maybe some people were making fun of Jaejoong & Yunho purposefully act more intimate (hug him, hold his hand etc). Yunho really really treat Jaejoong as his boyfriend, finally allowing all his love to show & even his brother was happy seeing how happy Yunho was to lavish Jaejoong with his attention even though MinSu made a comment about something is weird with Yunjae. Now Jaejoong's starting to realize things he never noticed before about Yunho, like how Yunho always knew what he felt/want just by looking at him, how Yunho just know what he need to hear & when to tell him things, how Yunho know all his likes/dislikes, uhm, well basically how attentive Yunho was & what Yunho always did for him (things Jaejoong usually mislook). But Yunho never said I love you to him (not that he knew/heard) so Jaejoong disregard everything.
Nearing graduation, the 5 decides to go camping(?). Jaejoong loves nature & highly enthusiastic with all the planning & preparation but Yunho was sad since after this the other 4 would go separate ways & leave him. Worst, he had to breakup with Jaejoong. Soon everyone started to notice something's wrong & all demanded Jaejoong to resolve it. Unfortunately his words came out wrong & Yunho thought Jaejoong was trying to breakup with him. He ran away, refused to see Jaejoong anymore & told everyone they've broken up which confuses the Yoosumin cause if Jaejoong broke up with Yunho, why does Jaejoong look heartbroken even more than Yunho? Jaejoong refused to talk to any of them & started missing Yunho, losing his appetite & finally fainting on graduation day due to all the strain. Some people were worried about Jaejoong but others were laughing at the noise Jaejoong made when he fell & how hard/heavy he was for his friends/family to pick him up without help but Yunho go all berserk on them before Jaejoong's parents could. Since it's graduation day Yunho was there too ok for his brother. He's so worried he waited for Jaejoong at the hospital. Jaejoong was delusional & kept calling Yunho's name before he wakes. So yeah, confrontation time & happy ending. Jaejoong stays fat in here, please. As long as he's healthy, what's wrong with the few pounds?

 

 

 

B. I'm craving for a smut involving a mute Yunho/Jaejoong. It's the mute person's first time, first boyfriend too. So he's very insecure & timid during the sex although his personality is nothing like that in real life. Despite his disability, he's actually very confident & capable of taking care of himself. But since he can't speak, he's suddenly overwhelmed with the ugly throaty like scratchy like noises he can't help but make. But then his lover noticed his tear & they communicate.

 

C. "Go to sleep baby, I just want to watch you sleep..."

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plot bunnies
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1. These eyes that used to look at nothing; because I’m looking for you. And this heart that used to beat for nothing; because I’m waiting for you.</p>

 

 

 

2. "I can’t breathe without you,” Yunho laughed derisively, brokenly. “No... I am breathing but it’s hard... It’s really hard Jaejoong and it hurts and I can’t stand it. Breathing’s supposed to be easy, automatic you know? It’s not supposed to feel like your chest’s going to explode, like, like there’s not enough oxygen for you, like you don’t know how to breathe.”

 

 

 

3. Yoochun sighed. “Yunho’s just... different. Nobody really understands him, even I until now, I still can’t say I understand him and we’ve known each other since we’re 7. But he’s- I don’t know how to explain. All I know is that he’s just the way he is. He doesn’t love people easily, incapable of doing so, and yet he loves too much. It’s the same how he doesn’t care about anything and yet he cares about everything. He’s Yunho like that you know. It wasn’t supposed to make any sense but that's the only way to make sense of him."

 

 

 

4. "No,” Yunho frowned heavily. “Listen to me. You have to make it. Let me die first because if you die before me, I’ll lose it. I'm selfish. I can’t handle that much pain Jae. I don’t want to see you die.”
When Yunho talked like this, JaeJoong always felt at loss. “Death isn’t something we have control of, Yunho.”
“I know... But if I have the choice, I want to die before you. If I can watch over you after my death, I would. If you fall in love again, I won’t mind. In fact, I’ll be happy as long as you’re happy when I’m gone. I want you to forget me and move on... But if you die first, I can’t do that Jae. I don’t know why I can’t but I'll try but I know I can’t live anymore without you. So if I follow you, it’s okay right? You won’t be mad at me, right Jaejoong?”

 

 

 

5. Changmin can't understand what makes Jaejoong so happy. He cleared his throat. “Let me get this straight. He can’t drive, he can’t cook, he hate socializing and he won’t even step out of the house if it’s not with you or for you.. Why the fuck are you getting involved with him?!”
It wasn’t important that they bickered about it. Jaejoong and Changmin always fought about everything. They believed that's what bestfriends do.
But it is a problem that Yunho chanced upon their fight this time and worst, neither of the two noticed him slipped out of the cafe with a heavy heart.

 

 

 

6. Why is it so hard to notice and appreciate what we got? So we started realizing things only when it’s no longer there.

 

 

 

7. Why is it so wrong to live like today’s our very last day? So we started to regret only when it’s a second too late.

 

 

 

8. Why is it so hard to say all the love and thanks we felt inside? So we started to say them only when there’s no one to hear.

 

 

 

9. Jaejoong’s one of the most unfortunate ones. He was born with a broken heart.
[Everyone knew you can’t (shouldn’t) love a broken heart. They said if you do, your heart’s going to be broken too.]
But Yunho love Jaejoong. His heart had chosen to beat for him.
[Everyone knew a broken heart cannot beat (love) like a normal heart could. That’s why they can’t love at all.]
Jaejoong wanted to love and be loved. But everyone knew it’s not possible so he shied away.
[But what’s wrong with two broken hearts beating for each other?]
Jaejoong didn’t mean to but he broke Yunho’s heart. And to everyone’s surprise, Jaejoong's heart bleeds for the sight of it.

 

 

 

10. After that horrible incident last year, he learnt how to live without even the barest of touch but he’s yet to learn how to live without his lover’s smile.

 


providence: prologue
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Written by: yjmsy
Featuring: Jung Yunho, Kim Jaejoong
Summary: Destiny is something to be chased and owned.

 

“Impressive,” Yunho allowed a small smile on his lips as he looked up. The older man in front of him smiled back at him but oddly Yunho sensed some sort of pain from it. And it felt strangely familiar. He’s convinced he’d seen that look somewhere.

Yunho placed the resume on his desk and slightly frowned.

“Kim Jaejoong-shii, have we met before?”

The older man looked disconcerted for a while. “… Four years ago,” Jaejoong muttered softly as he wrung his hands together in his lap. Yunho quickly noted that the little confidence the man showed during the interview earlier had completely disappeared. “Me and my…my lover... we were in the same hospital…”

Yunho parted his lips in silent recognition. He vaguely remembered the sight of a man having to be pinned down to bed and tranquilized before his late mother transferred him to another hospital. The man’s head was heavily bandaged at the time but now that Yunho tried to focus, he could somewhat recognized the face.

“I’m sorry for your loss,” Yunho slowly spoke as he remembered what his mother told him about the incident. Admittedly his mother's words were vile and full of hate but Yunho didn't share her sentiment for homosexuals. He had only felt sorrow for the man four years ago and he still does. Perhaps even more now.

For a while, Jaejoong said nothing. “It’s… it’s okay. He’s gone now, I know. Gotta be moving on, right?” This time, when Jaejoong offered him a soft hesitant smile, Yunho’s heart skipped a beat.

Slightly flustered, he cleared his throat and stood up. “Well, thank you for coming. We’ll contact you soon if you’re accepted for the position.” It was only due to his pride that Yunho managed to hold himself in but even that wasn't enough to stop him from escorting the man out. He watched Jaejoong disappeared into the lift before instructing Sunny to inform the awaiting applicants that the position had just been filled.

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fucking RED
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RED IS CASSIOPEIA'S COLOR DAMNIT! RED IS TVXQ'S FANDOM COLOR! WHY THE HELL DID PSY WANT TO HAVE A FANDOM COLOR NOW AND OH SO CONVENIENTLY CHOOSE RED?! USUALLY ONLY IDOLS HAVE FANDOM COLORS ANYWAY SO WHY THE FUCKING FUCK THAT DAMN YG AND PSY CHOOSE RED?! IS IT SOME SORT OF A WARNING OR SHOW OFF FROM YG AND PSY TO SME AND TVXQ? FUCKFUCKFUCK I'M SO FREAKING PISSED. THERE ARE LIKE SO MANY COLORS OUT THERE AND THEM STILL PICKING CASSIOPEIA'S RED IS LIKE A SHITLOAD OF INSULT! WHY? CAUSE CASSIOPEIA'S NOT POWERFUL ANYMORE? CAUSE CASSIOPEIA'S INSIGNIFICANT NOW? FUCK I'M GONNA SCREAM AND THEN KILL SOMEONE. SHIT. TO THINK THAT I RESPECTED PSY BEFORE CAUSE HE HELPS POPULARIZE KOREA AND KPOP... BUT SUCH A SHOW OFF COCKY MAN HE IS NOW! PSY'S ONLY OUT THERE CAUSE OF GANGNAM STYLE DAMNIT! CAUSE HE'S SO FREAKING DIFFERENT FROM ANY ENTERTAINERS AROUND THE GLOBE! HE'S LIKE A COMEDIAN+ARTIST! SOME STRESSED PEOPLE ENJOYED PSY SO WHAT?! RED IS CASSIOPEIA'S!

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so it feels like this
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I think I like it. Writing I mean. Fuck the fact that I almost failed my MUET coz of the writing part. I like yunjae so whatever

heechul's warning
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Strangely, Heechul's words the evening before still echoes loudly in Yunho's mind. To his utter dismay, he can't shake it off no matter what he did.

 

*
"-but don't underestimate him. One day that self-perception of his will take its toll on you... At that time, you can't afford to give up Jung, remember that. Or you'll lose him."
*

 

What did Heechul meant with that?
Yunho's movement falls out of sync again, repeatedly missing the beat because of his confusion. He sighs.
Is it a warning of some sort? But everyone know of Heechul's dislikes for Jaejoong so why..? Heechul never approved of Jaejoong and Yunho as a couple in the first place to be concerned.
Too troubled, Yunho finally gives up dancing. He goes to stop the soft music and slumps down against the mirror, closing his eyes in exhaustion.
For the first time ever, it's not the dancing that tires him completely. It's his own mind.
Yunho sighs again. He's not even sure why he's like this.
Maybe Heechul's right. Maybe he's indeed-
Yunho jolts out of his thoughts, eyes startlingly wide. He's not ready to acknowledge that. Not that.

 

*
Heechul smiles the alarming smile (the one that indicate he know something that you should've known but don't) and it make his stomach queasy. "I see. It's been almost 2 months isn't it? Ah... I guess you don't have to worry about a thing then. You can love him-"
*

 


uncanny roommates
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"Hi," Jaejoong smiles, waving cheerfully at the blank face of his roommate for the semester.
Everyone in school knows Yunho (or at least everyone in their year did) so Jaejoong's not surprise at the lack of response. He is however, slightly unsettled by how good the boy is at making him feel invincible. He knows Yunho always live in his own world but since they're sharing a room this semester, he's hoping Yunho'll at least acknowledge his existence. Even if only in their room. After all, he's now the Kim Jaejoong that most boys (and a number of girls) generally swoon over regardless of their sexual preference..
But of course Yunho isn't one of the masses.
Jaejoong sighs, walking to other side of the room somewhat troubled. It has been quite a while he feel this way. Like nobody notice his existence like before.. Automatically he looks at his body, worrying if his past is materializing again. But no. He's looking great. His body is still oh so skinnily fabulous.
So why can't Yunho see him?


the belladonna boy
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Jaejoong's rambling again and Yunho's not really listening but he know Jaejoong's used to it already. By the looks of it, the boy doesn't mind his silence as well. After all, Jaejoong's the only one who keeps on having a one-sided conversation with him apart from Heechul. But Heechul is special while Jaejoong is his roommate for the semester.
And boyfriend. Jaejoong is currently his boyfriend too. So maybe that's why.
But it's hard to remember that detail. Yunho never know what the other boy want. Jaejoong's outspoken, yes, but Yunho can't really grasp him. They were just roommates... They barely know each other and Jaejoong never showed him any sort of interest. But last week he found out Jaejoong had literally announced to his classmates they're dating. Jaejoong said nothing to him before or after the incident and for some reason Yunho too said nothing in response. Nothing change between them.
Yunho abruptly pauses in realization. Somehow he's leaning closer to Jaejoong, too close that he notices the expressive eyes. Yunho used to think of them as dark, manipulative canvas before. Funny. They're actually that big... That direct.
Jaejoong's still rambling, totally unaware as Yunho cautiously shifts back.
Yunho can't understand Jaejoong. And with Jaejoong's infamous reputation, he's sure he don't want to. No matter what he sees in the boy's eyes, he won't fall for it. Never.


coffee
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Yunho's probably the only one in school that drink black coffee like water. He have it prepared for breakfast, lunch, dinner... All the time. Heck, the boy even drink coffee minutes before he goes to bed! It's amazing.
And so Jaejoong who used to prefer tea (anything) over coffee find himself buying, making and tasting the same coffee after two weeks of watching his roommate drink coffee 24/7. He definitely cringes at the first taste, somewhat horrified it tasted that bitter but mindlessly takes another sip, thinking of adding a few more sugar cube.
The coffee is still foul in his mouth but soon he realizes, almost in awe, that there's a strange sweetness about its aftertaste.
It's really not bad at all.
So he finishes it up in minutes, no sugar added. Watching the now empty cup makes him feel extremely proud and giddy. Don't ask why. There's no way he can explain.
But yes, Jaejoong might make another cup of it soon. Yes indeed, real soon.


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